Moving!! :)

Sooo....got the keys to the new place yesterday! YAY!! Moved some of our stuff yesterday and the rest we are moving today! It is very exciting :)

The only problem is our lack of furniture right now lol and lack of money. But just because it will be a little rocky at first doesn't mean it isn't worth it!

I am going to take some pictures today of the apartment and the new trailer, it will be interesting to have photos of the past to see how far we have come in the future.

Last night sucked because Dustin and I decided to send Mercedes out to his parents farm for the night so we could get as much work done last night as we could. We stayed at the trailer late putting things away, and walked back to the apartment to sleep (seeing as we don't even have a bed for the trailer yet lol) and on the way back we were swarmed by mosquitoes! UGH. So about a block away from the apartment I decide to start booking it down the street....Not the smartest idea I have ever had lol Running with a five pound baby in the tummy is not a great idea. I woke up this morning barely able to move. I have been forcing myself to do the rest of the packing and everything through the pain. Although I should consider myself lucky cuz it could have been worse. I could of accidentally induced labor or something bad like that lol

Anyways We don't have internet at our new place yet so it will be a while till I blog again.

Wish us luck!!

A lot has happened!

So It's been a while since I last posted, but a lot has happened since!

Dustin got a new job which is paying almost 10 dollars an hour more then his last job! It is nice for sure.

Also we are looking at a place to buy. We won't be able to make an offer yet because of the fact that Dustin hasn't been in his job long. But we will Most likely be moving into the new place the beginning of August! Really soon! We will be renting it till we are able to purchase.

It is a nice place to, perfect for us! 3 bedrooms, 2 full bathrooms, and a yard! Which means I get to get my little Dog back after we move in (Odie...he is staying with my mom right now)

All of this is VERY exciting!

PLUS I have started planning Mercedes' first birthday with the help of Dustin's Sister. Can you believe it! Next month my baby is turning 1!! Soon she won't be a baby anymore :(

Speaking of baby...I am Getting huge! lol Which means not much longer. Less then 10 weeks left! OH MY! lol. I am pretty sure that this baby is a boy...we are all hoping anyways. But I will be happy with either or!

I have been soooo exhausted lately. I went to my scheduled prenatal last wed and they did blood work on me. I found out that I have Low Iron and Vitamin B12. Thats why I feel like sleeping ALL THE TIME lol. But I got the vitamins so things should start to look up again.

Me? A Housewife?

So I have recently realized how far I have actually come as a mom and wife! I mean this time last year I was pregnant, Dustin and I were not even living together. I still needed my mom more then anyone in the world, and I didn't really do much with my life.

Now Dustin and I are married. and I have become the person that I never thought I could be. The thought of being a stay at home house wife was so...scary! But now I look at myself and I do everything now that used to scare me lol like making meals for my family, keeping the house spic n span, Doing laundry regularly, and the rest of the little things that moms do. And now that I am doing it without even thinking (and its definitely not scary anymore lol) I find that I am actually very proud of myself.

Not only that...Since I have gotten my life under control and am very happy with everything...I find myself getting more and more excited every day for the fact that I am welcoming a new little munchkin into my family soon. The thought of having another little baby is getting less and less scary!

So Nothing New..

Nothing new really to update on, except that I had a prenatal appointment yesterday. Everything is going really well and the baby seems to be doing great! Which is awesome news :) Now I have to go to the Doctor every 2 weeks, which means...It's getting close! Can't wait!

I just have to remember...

Dustin came home for a few minutes to shower and what not before his long drive. I was worried about him because he was an hour late coming home. I was worried that when he did get home that he would be upset at there being no food. I was worried that he would be grumpy because of the fact that he has to drive all night...I think Dustin is right...I worry too much!!

He wasn't upset at all when he came home. When he did finally get home he hugged me and even though he hates the way he smells when he comes home from work (like dirt and oil lol) when he hugs me and holds me after he walks through the door I just take it all in.

I am so lucky to have him in my life... he makes me feel so complete. People are so surprised when they actually realize that a girl my age can actually be in love. But it's more then that. To me...love is a feeling, and emotion...What I have with Dustin is more then that. It feels like he is half of me. If I were to lose him, I would lose have of who I am. Of course I have the feelings of love for him, but I also have everything else that I felt like I was missing before him.

I think that when people have the idea of "Love" In their head, It's completely wrong. Or I guess "wrong" is a bad way of putting it...I guess what I mean is, they don't get the whole picture. That's why so many people end up heart broken... I can honestly say that Dustin and I will grow old together. I could never imagine myself being with anyone else. Period.

A New Respect for my Mom...

like a soft silk blanket,

your love is there.

Covering me with gentleness and warmth.

As a mother you want to protect,

steal the hurt,

and mask the world for what it really is.

No one can be perfect,

but the Love, care, and intentions,

of a Mother is.

The bond can never be broken,

Thoughts can never fade.

You can feel the love from miles away.

I love you Mom,

I will always and forever,

be your baby girl

I wrote this for my mom, after one evening I was thinking about my own baby girl and how hard it will be for me when she actually has to face the big bad world. I guess I never really thought about how hard it must have been, and still is, for my mom to watch me struggle though life's hardships and not be able to take the pain and frustration away.

So Frustrating sometimes :(

Ugh...

Kinda mad right now.

How come my little family is expected to be so good and helpful...but no one has to be good and helpful back? I'm so tired of people! It's safe to say that I am NOT a people person at all.

I don't get to see Dustin today. After work he has to drive all the way to Fort Mac to pick up his brother and his Girlfriend and baby. It's a long ass drive so he won't be back till probably around 5am. Of course no one asked him to do this till last night!

I was supposed to go grocery shopping twice already. Dustin is going to be upset when he comes home and there is no food. But I have no one to help me right now. I Don't have a vehicle. Just Me, Mercedes, and her stroller... how am I supposed to walk across town to get a bunch of groceries and walk all the way back? UGH!! Whatever.